I looked at myself in the mirror today and felt disgusted. I don’t think it is my body dysmorphia, this is just how I’ve allowed myself to be. I see someone who is pasty, with dull skin and a scarily high percentage of fat with nearly no muscle. Everything about me screams unhealthy. I have no energy, feel sick all the time, sleep terribly and have a very low quality of life. I feel like a lot of this is within my control. I need to start taking care of myself. Eating things that provide my body with nutrients - eating full stop. I need to (sigh) exercise. I need to do these things because I want to be healthy, not because I want to be thin. It needs to be a life change - a commitment. There’s no limit to the benefits this will have on my body and mind. It’s so hard though. I know what to do, the trick is having the willpower to stick to it. I’ll come up with a plan later.